This is a blog of love, a blog of hope, a blog of freedom. There is no perfection here..just me.

Love...
I have been faced with this topic repeatedly over the past few months, what is love to you? what do you think of love?

To be honest, im not quite sure, I know it exist and I know its something good, i know it's something I want to spread to others, but then again can you truly do that if you dont love yourself?

These lyrics from a Natalie Grant song keep coming back to me

It’s hard to stand
On shifting sand
It’s hard to shine
In the shadows of the night
You can’t be free
If you don’t reach for help
And you can’t love
If you don’t love yourself



can we possibly know what love really is if we can't accept it ourselves?
I'm learning to love myself, im learning to accept the love others offer me and i'm learning to accept the love of God...How truly amazing it is...

Love truly is a movement, it takes time. It takes courage and it takes strength but in the end you will be moved so much by it. I dont think you can truly know who you are without knowing what love is...

so i kind of rambled on there for awhile.

Today was an odd day, i had a few urges to cut and well ieven thougt of death once or twice, but dont worry they were just thoughts, i hardly ever make it through a day without having a thought or two of suicide, but they are nothing like they used to be, God has freed me from the visions of my suicide, the plans, the attempts.

Today I am free....and it feels so worth all the pain I have had to gone through and the pain I am going through now.